I wrote this poem quite a few years back. I wanted to write a poem that was completely out of my normal style. I wrote this by adding Hindi and writing it from the point of view of a widow. Last month I saw an episode of India’s Next Superstar which reminded me of my poem. The picture above is taken from there and the scene starts at 2:50 into the video. Last week was Holi but surviving the Beast from the East was the reason I forgot about it. A belated Holi to everyone and may your life be filled with colour.
Holi Aaye re Aaye re Aaye re,
But how can I celebrate when he is not there?
Colours of spring everywhere.
But my life is prosaic and my hair grey.
For who can know the heart of a woman in pain.
Who can hear her silent wail.
While you sing and dance all the time,
I will hide behind my hypocritical smile.
Wear your white and paint it with a rainbow.
Just find me the darkest corner so I can lay low.
My hearts desire is for him to say,
Tumse alava koi nahi hein.
I have never smoked or taken recreational drugs in my life. The closest I have come is having a hemp beer and taking a bite of hemp chocolate. The beer was not bad. The chocolate was terrible. In my excitement to try out the hemp chocolate, I failed to notice that it contained coffee. I hate coffee. I have found the debate of the medical use of marijuana an interesting one. I do believe that it is hard to distinguish using cannabis for medical reasons or recreational when it is smoked. However, I am more open-minded when it comes to using the extract or oil. I came across this article. I have epilepsy. I hope there will be a cure for it someday. In the meantime, if there is a medicine that can treat epilepsy especially in children then it should be encouraged. It is difficult for adults to cope with epilepsy. It can be a traumatic experience for children. I honestly hope GW Pharma will be successful in getting the medicine up and running. I do not have a problem if marijuana is an ingredient in it as long as the child does not get addicted to the drug. People with epilepsy need their medication. I can manage 18 hours at the most before I feel the effects of not taking my medication kick in. I think that this medicine may be positive.
GW Pharma depends on epidolex which is an orphan drug to become successful. I find the investment into companies that make orphan drugs highly risky. This would be different as I would see it as supporting a cause. I currently do not have any holdings of GW Pharma or am involved in any of their clinical trials but wouldn’t mind getting involved in both.