I love how Arya Stark has a list and the fact that she is religious about it. Yes, I did realise that the above image is outdated. The point though is all of us have some kind of list that we keep crossing things off. In my case, it is the imprecatory Psalm 69. I am not going to run around with a needle and stab the people on my list. I leave it in the hand of God. I do not know if I am wrong or right to maintain this list. If I am wrong then I know that I will be told off by my maker for I have made my peace. I have been clear in my mind for nearly 25 years that I want my epitaph to read “The Lord gave and the Lord taketh away; blessed be the name of the Lord.” Now I am considering adding my list of names below that. It just may work. Maybe when my time comes there will be some names that can be struck through and others that can be chiselled through after.
2017 was a year filled with death and disappointments. I possibly kept two of the resolutions that I had set forth. I am possibly going to approach this year slightly differently. Our vicar mentioned that the Ten Commandments and sermon on the mount can essentially be broken down into the following
1) Relationship with God.
2) Relationship with family.
3) Relationship with society.
I will do my best to be true to these. I do not know how successful I will be. I do hope that if I work on these areas then I will grow as a person. I strongly believe that the only sign of life is change. Last year felt very stagnant. Stagnation is the first sign of death. I do not want to die as yet as I know that I have not fulfilled the purpose why God placed me on the earth. I do have to clean up the dirt of 2017 before it festers into malaria ridden mosquitoes. I do believe I can achieve this through the support of my family and my church. 2017 will probably be a watershed year that will have a lasting impact on my remaining life. I do hope that it will be a nadir where I can rise like a phoenix. The sermon and theme song from Chariots of Fire are running through my head. Isaiah chapter 40 seems to be the passage for me this year just as Acts chapter 2 and Psalms 69 were mine for the last year.
I want to start a project of writing Psalms. This is my first attempt. I would love to get some thoughts and comments on this
I bury my head in my hands to quell tears from my eyes.
They flow like a river starting at its very source.
The priests they dress in their mighty finery.
The sadducees mock me aplenty.
When will you hear my cry?
When will my enemies be slain?
Protect me my merciful God.
Save me from those who seek me harm.
May they perish into darkness,
May their souls wander between worlds.
May their children know no peace,
May their childrens children walk baren in the desert.
Save me my Lord.
Save your humble servant.
I prostrate myself before thee.
For only you are holy.